Highlights of 2020

2020 was quite the year, wasn’t it? Coronavirus, social distancing, staying at home, wearing masks, and travel restrictions, the Beirut explosion, Pakistan airliner crash, bushfires, floods in Indonesia, etc., etc.

To put it bluntly a VERY shitty year, overall.

Especially for me and my family – one of my little brothers who has some form of epilepsy ended up not being able to walk or talk or really do much of anything so we had to go to Adelaide to get him help from the doctors there and he ended up being in there for two months before he could come back and when he came back he was able to walk and talk and all that and has been able to do all that ever since, praise God/Yah!

Another brother who also has some form of epilepsy (not the same type as the above mentioned brother) and there were a few problems with that last year, but thankfully, they seem to have worked out what’s causing there as there’s a displaysia or however you spell it on the left side of his brain that he’s going to have surgery for later this year to remove that part of the brain, so hopefully that will stop the seizures and he’ll be able to live life to the fullest without having to have to take the meds every day and night and without having to worry about the seizures or anything.

Then my dad was diagnosed with stage 4 cancer, which he still has. I have no idea what’s going to happen with him, I am praying for God’s/Yah’s Will to be done there, hopefully a recovery is what God/Yah wants for my father.

And my grandmother died around the beginning of December. I was there and I never want to see someone die right before my eyes ever again, especially someone I love. That was the hardest thing I’ve been through, it’s hard to believe it was just a month ago, it feels longer than that. She was such a beautiful and caring woman and grandmother and I just fucking want her back here so I can hold her and never let her go.

So…yeah.

But there was some good things that happened last year.

I got to spend just over a week in January with Grandma and then when the brother had to spend two months in Adelaide in hospital, I got to spend just over a month over there spending time with Grandma, which was awesome!!! I got my fingernails done for the first time, too! But they didn’t last long XD

I started my own YouTube Channel! Haven’t gotten to update it in a while, so I’m going to do update it soon, but me and my brother and fellow blogger J-M’s History Corner started doing singing videos, and sometimes I got to do a couple solos, which was fun (and nerve-wrecking), but you can check out my YouTube channel here:

Racheal Mustchin – YouTube

One of my books on WattPad was featured in a WattPad book club review! The reviews were all different, and they were all fun to read and discover people’s different opinions and ideas, but overall they were pretty positive so that’s a plus.

Also, I ended up meeting a girl I used to play with back in Kindergarten and now we’re friends again XD And I also ended up reconnecting last year with another girl I was friends with, but hadn’t heard from in years – it was a complete accident when I was browsing through a blog by someone who’s comment I had really liked, then saw this blogger on that blog I was checking leave an interesting comment, so went to check them out, too, and discovered that low and behold that that blogger was a friend of mine that I hadn’t been able to be in contact with for a few years! You can imagine my surprise and elation to find her! She is an awesome and incredible person and blogger, you really need to check out her blog, which you can find here:

http://www.jasmineroserpc.wordpress.com

Back in September my church’s youth group went in a hike which was a LOT of fun! Here are some photos and videos from the hike!

https://youtu.be/KNrz07w1kT8

https://youtu.be/XYu9aEH1tcU

https://youtu.be/Xsi4p4Wowz4

Selfie

I took a LOT of photos, so can only show this small amount 😅

Also, me and my Mum went out to a Ladies Only dinner with a few friends, don’t have any pictures of that cause I didn’t have my phone at the time, but it was awesome!!! 🥳

I got a new laptop after my old one broke,and also got my first phone!!! 😍

I also turned eighteen 🤩🥳🤩😁 Which sadly I don’t have any pictures of that day, so can’t show any 😢

Got to celebrate my first Christmas in YEARS and also got to see new years eve fireworks for the first time in person 😯😯

The photos really don’t do it justice. Here’s some more photos from New Year’s Eve:

Also in December, I got my ears pierced, got to meet some relatives, go to the beach, museum, art gallery, and just have a really great time hanging out and meeting everyone!

And another excellent thing that happened last year, which is possibly one of the BEST things that happened last year, is that I got a boyfriend 🥰🥰 I’m really glad I met him and I still find it hard to believe that he said yes to me! He is so smart and funny and awesome and caring and so completely damn handsome 😊😍🥰💖

So while last year was overall shitty, there was some very good and excellent things that happened as well and I’m so thankful for that ❤️

Pieces

Pieces

Shattering

Moments

Lost

Laughter

Fading

Photos

Tearing

Memories

Blurry

Tears

Flowing

Fearful

Of forgetting

Time

Steals your life away

Breathe…

Make it all count

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My First Christmas In Forever

Forgive the cheesy title, but I couldn’t resist going for something Frozen sounding 😃😃😃

But it’s true, this year was the first time I had celebrated Christmas in YEARS, so it was a very novel and fascinating experience!

I got to set up my first Christmas tree with my cousin whom I shall call Lucy (not her real name, but calling her Lucy on here to protect her privacy). And let me tell you that was a hilarious experience – never set up one before and this one Lucy and I set up was a fake tree, so trying to put it all together was a bit of pain, especially since Lucy had to keep correcting and redoing the parts of the tree I had put together. But I managed to get it in the end (much to Lucy’s relief 🤣🤣🤣)

Then we put on the tinsel, lights and ornaments – the lights were “fun” cause we kept tangling them when we were trying to untangle them.

But the ornaments were the best part – quite a few were ones that mine and Lucy’s grandmother had used as a child, which Grandma was planning on hanging up with us, but sadly she passed away before that could happen. And there were some that apparently Grandma’s mother had collected while in Israel, which was so freaking cool!

We all bought each other presents and trying to wrap them was fun – we all ended up finding out what we were each getting a little sooner than we should’ve 🤣🤣🤣Thankfully, we managed to keep some presents a secret until Christmas Day.

Christmas day was fun, opening presents, doing a little drinking, having lots and lots of food and blasting music. Discovered a neat little Christmas thing called Bonbons (don’t know if I’m spelling them correctly) and it was fun playing it – got a TINY little picture frame, how the fuck am I meant to fit anything into something as tiny as that is? 🤣

Sorry it’s such a blurry picture

Christmas day was awesome and I definitely plan on celebrating it from now on! How was y’alls Christmas?

Random Thoughts

I’ve heard people say that nothing hurts worse than betrayal.

But I think they’re wrong.

What hurts the most is the guilt from thinking you’ve been betrayed and then discovering that you haven’t been and that you’ve seriously misread the situation, which is a relief, but at the same time a huge hurt cause you caused pain to someone whom you most likely care about (and they care about you) by thinking ill of them and then they blame themselves when the fault lies squarely with you…but they don’t see that at all.

Nothing hurts worse than knowing that you’ve wounded someone when they had nothing but good intentions for you and then they feel guilty but fail to see how it’s not their fault, but yours.

In Loving Memory of My Grandmother

Cold and empty

Your seat will always be

Never again will you sit there

Lovingly scolding us or laughing

Your warm smile and sparkling eyes

Will never be seen again

How do we move on?

What can we do without you?

You were awesome

Strong

Always there

With love and lots of care

Grandma, we love you

And we hope to see you again one day.

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I know this doesn’t rhyme and all, but I really wanted to be able to write something about my grandmother, who recently passed away. This probably needs more fine-tuning, but what I wrote is just what I really wanted to say right now.

Love you Grandma, and I really miss you.

Overestimation

This is just a fictional diary entry I’m writing – yes, it’s based on my own personal feelings I’ve had, but it’s mainly fiction. Enjoy!

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Dear Diary,

Okay, I admit it – I’m extremely self-critical.

I’m always hard on myself.

And I do underestimate myself a lot.

BUT

I think some of the compliments and praises I receive are VERY inaccurate – either the person is extremely exaggerating to try and make me feel better or genuinely believes what they are saying but is really overestimating me.

I KNOW I underestimate myself.

Stop telling me that.

Start wondering if sometimes – not saying all the time, just sometimes – that you seriously overestimate me, my abilities and who I am.

Don’t patronise me.

Stop telling me that I’m just not being honest with myself.

Cause I am trying to be – I know I see myself badly, I know I need to fix this, I know that I’m probably better than I think…but I also know I’m not everything you probably think I am.

There.

Rant done.

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Hope you enjoyed.

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Reader Request 18th November

Hey everyone!

Today is the Reader Request!!!! Thank you for the questions I got and I hope you enjoy reading my answers.

CARAMEL’S QUESTIONS:

What gave you the idea for the Zion trilogy?

For those who haven’t heard of my Zion trilogy, it’s a dystopian/sci-fi trilogy I wrote, which you can find on Amazon here: https://www.amazon.com/s?i=digital-text&rh=p_27%3AAsh+Digest&s=relevancerank&text=Ash+Digest&ref=dp_byline_sr_ebooks_1

I’m not totally sure what inspired it, actually. I know I really wanted to write my own dystopian trilogy after reading The Hunger Games and Maze Runner trilogies, but I’m not sure what actually inspired the plot. All I know is that I was in the back verandha of my house sorting out catalogues to deliver when I started getting literal pictures in my head of all theses different stuff that I ended up using in my story – I just got these pictures in my head and I just started writing down what I would see and voila! The Zion trilogy was born.

How has your life changed during the 2020 social distancing etc?

Not too much, cause I never really went out too much or socialized with anyone due to 1) no-one really wanting anything to do with me and my family and 2) depression and anxiety issues. I mean, I would be friendly and try to talk to people, but never actually “socialised” in my opinion.

So all this social distancing hasn’t really affected me all that much.

Do you like strawberries? (Goldfinch told me it is strawberry season for you)

Yeah, strawberries are nice. They’re not my go-to for fruit snacks, but they are nice.

Where do you see yourself in ten years time?

After the way 2020 has been so far, I’m scared to give an answer to this, haha!

I don’t really have any idea other than what I hope and dream about.

RENEE’S QUESTION:

What have you been up to?

You mean in general? Um…schoolwork (or studies, whatever you wanna call them), chores, doing writing roleplay. My Grandma and my great-auntie Clare came to visit last month (I think?) or the month before, and they ended up taking me and my siblings to the pub for the first time, we spent time at the beach, and Grandma and Auntie Clare took me and my mum out for just some girl time which they called “adulting”. Also, me and Mum were invited out recently by some ladies at this church we go to for this Ladies only dinner thing at a Chinese restaurant – it was pretty fun! Sure, I just sat there silently while they all chatted, but the food was great!

Speaking of the church, they have this Youth Group thing every Sunday afternoon/evening where we get to play games and sing and just be our silly, childish selves. We even went on a hike once, it was cool.

Family situation hasn’t been so good health wise and otherwise. And my state is now going into a temporary lockdown 😥

Um…I think that’s about it? Sorry I haven’t been updating my stories, it’s just been kinda full on and involved lately…well, kinda with this whole fucking year, actually…and I just haven’t been in the proper mindset for it, though I’m going to try and get back into it, even if I have to kick my dumb muse’s ass myself.

JASMINE’S QUESTION:

How are you doing?

As of this moment? I’m tired.

Of how a few things have been going for me.

I’m just really tired and I just want it all to be over.

But other than that, I’m good, promise. Just tired.

And…that’s all, really, I guess.

I hope you all enjoyed reading my answers.

Have a great day/night!

All It Takes

There’s a million graves inside my head

My creativity, my life amongst the dead

I need help

I’m buried deep

Just a little push

And I tumble down

Just a little push

Is all it takes

I go through the day with a smile

Always with something upbeat to say

Trying to quietly fight the demons

That are slowly killing my mind

Help me

How do I let you in?

I’m broken

I can’t go on

I don’t even know what I’m doing anymore


This is just a poem – well, okay an ATTEMPT at poetry cause I still haven’t quite found my creative groove again. Uh, hope you all enjoyed it.

Racheal Update and Reader Request 18th November

Hey everyone

I am so sorry for being so absent, just have had a lot going on with my family health wise and some other things, so was so caught up in that that I forgot about my blog and all of you guys 😢

I’m going to be working on a post for you all whenever I get the time, and I’m sorry that I’ve been caught up in a lot of stuff and forgot about you all.

So, I’m also doing a reader request while I work on the story post. The reader request will be held on 18th November (for those of you who are not on the same time zone as me, the reader request is being held in 6 days).

So ask me anything you want and I’ll answer them in a post in 6 days time!!! Or 7 days time if for some reason I am a little late.

Overturned Chapter 17

“Where the hell have you been?” Charles asked accusingly, crossing his arms across his chest.

Virgil looked at him and raised his eyebrow. “I would’ve been here this whole time, but right after the accident, I had a phone call that my mother was dying due to,” and here he paused and glanced down at his feet, looking like he was really trying to reign in his grief and other catastrophic emotions, “due to a brain tumour that she’s been fighting and a couple other extremely urgent family emergencies and I’ve only just been able to get here.”

Charles had his eyes narrowed the entire time, searching Virgil for any signs that he had been lying.

But it seemed that Virgil was telling the truth.

Which Charles was kinda disappointed about.

“I’m truly sorry, Virgil,” Lily said, going over to Virgil and resting her hand on his shoulder, which caused said man to give her a grateful look. Lily smiled at him and then turned her eyes towards Charles and glared fire and daggers into his soul.

If looks could kill…

“Follow. Me,” she said through gritted teeth.

Charles nodded and waited until Lily had detached herself from Mia’s boyfriend and had started walking down the hall away from Virgil and the doctor before following after her, shooting Virgil an apologetic look, which Virgil just ignored and proceeded to go over to the doctor and start talking, though about what, Charles didn’t know cause Lily was furiously waiting for him.

He had never seen anyone this furious since he had broken up with Mia.

“Yes?” he asked hesitantly, every inch of him scared of what she was about to say to him, but hiding it pretty well.

“What are you doing?!?”

“Huh?”

“Don’t act dumb! Why are you talking to Virgil like that?! Acting like you’re accusing of him running off or something!”

Charles sighed and pinched his nose. “Cause I genuinely thought-“

“Not every guy is an asshole like you! Not every guy is going to run off and leave the girl in a lurch while going off with the next young and pretty Barbie doll out there!” Lily shouted. Charles glared and was about to give a stinging retort, but then fell silent as Lily continued her rant, not giving him time to respond. “He doesn’t need you acting all holier-than-thou! None of us need that! You have no right to talk to him like that, especially after the crap you pulled on Mia! Virgil had an extremely legitimate reason for disappearing like that and he’s still here for Mia – which is way more than I can say for you, isn’t it?”

“I’m here now,” Charles muttered quietly.

“But you weren’t there for her all those years ago, were you? And the only reason you’re here now is probably to get in her pants, screw her over and then ditch her again – I’m not blind. So do us all a favour and fuck off!”

“Lily?” Charles turned to see who was calling Lily and saw Virgil motioning her over.

“Yeah, I’m coming,” Lily seethed before starting to head over to Virgil and the doctor. Before she left, she turned to Charles and said: “Just. Leave.”

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