All It Takes

There’s a million graves inside my head

My creativity, my life amongst the dead

I need help

I’m buried deep

Just a little push

And I tumble down

Just a little push

Is all it takes

I go through the day with a smile

Always with something upbeat to say

Trying to quietly fight the demons

That are slowly killing my mind

Help me

How do I let you in?

I’m broken

I can’t go on

I don’t even know what I’m doing anymore

This is just a poem – well, okay an ATTEMPT at poetry cause I still haven’t quite found my creative groove again. Uh, hope you all enjoyed it.

Racheal Update and Reader Request 18th November

Hey everyone

I am so sorry for being so absent, just have had a lot going on with my family health wise and some other things, so was so caught up in that that I forgot about my blog and all of you guys 😢

I’m going to be working on a post for you all whenever I get the time, and I’m sorry that I’ve been caught up in a lot of stuff and forgot about you all.

So, I’m also doing a reader request while I work on the story post. The reader request will be held on 18th November (for those of you who are not on the same time zone as me, the reader request is being held in 6 days).

So ask me anything you want and I’ll answer them in a post in 6 days time!!! Or 7 days time if for some reason I am a little late.

Overturned Chapter 17

“Where the hell have you been?” Charles asked accusingly, crossing his arms across his chest.

Virgil looked at him and raised his eyebrow. “I would’ve been here this whole time, but right after the accident, I had a phone call that my mother was dying due to,” and here he paused and glanced down at his feet, looking like he was really trying to reign in his grief and other catastrophic emotions, “due to a brain tumour that she’s been fighting and a couple other extremely urgent family emergencies and I’ve only just been able to get here.”

Charles had his eyes narrowed the entire time, searching Virgil for any signs that he had been lying.

But it seemed that Virgil was telling the truth.

Which Charles was kinda disappointed about.

“I’m truly sorry, Virgil,” Lily said, going over to Virgil and resting her hand on his shoulder, which caused said man to give her a grateful look. Lily smiled at him and then turned her eyes towards Charles and glared fire and daggers into his soul.

If looks could kill…

“Follow. Me,” she said through gritted teeth.

Charles nodded and waited until Lily had detached herself from Mia’s boyfriend and had started walking down the hall away from Virgil and the doctor before following after her, shooting Virgil an apologetic look, which Virgil just ignored and proceeded to go over to the doctor and start talking, though about what, Charles didn’t know cause Lily was furiously waiting for him.

He had never seen anyone this furious since he had broken up with Mia.

“Yes?” he asked hesitantly, every inch of him scared of what she was about to say to him, but hiding it pretty well.

“What are you doing?!?”


“Don’t act dumb! Why are you talking to Virgil like that?! Acting like you’re accusing of him running off or something!”

Charles sighed and pinched his nose. “Cause I genuinely thought-“

“Not every guy is an asshole like you! Not every guy is going to run off and leave the girl in a lurch while going off with the next young and pretty Barbie doll out there!” Lily shouted. Charles glared and was about to give a stinging retort, but then fell silent as Lily continued her rant, not giving him time to respond. “He doesn’t need you acting all holier-than-thou! None of us need that! You have no right to talk to him like that, especially after the crap you pulled on Mia! Virgil had an extremely legitimate reason for disappearing like that and he’s still here for Mia – which is way more than I can say for you, isn’t it?”

“I’m here now,” Charles muttered quietly.

“But you weren’t there for her all those years ago, were you? And the only reason you’re here now is probably to get in her pants, screw her over and then ditch her again – I’m not blind. So do us all a favour and fuck off!”

“Lily?” Charles turned to see who was calling Lily and saw Virgil motioning her over.

“Yeah, I’m coming,” Lily seethed before starting to head over to Virgil and the doctor. Before she left, she turned to Charles and said: “Just. Leave.”



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Deceitfully Laced

Sitting there

In Angelic white

Giving guidance

When you’re actually an adder about to strike



For the innocent, the naive

The ones that’ll buy into your shit story

You suck up to them

Draw them in

Make them believe that you have the “truth”

Because of your “experiences”

And once they’ve stepped into your parlour

You slam the door tight

And throw away the key

Dooming them forever to your madness and schemes



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Liebster Award

Hey everybody! Welcome to all my new followers!

I’ve been nominated for the Liebster Award by the fabulous blogger Jasmine!

Thanks Jasmine! Check her out, she’s an awesome blogger!


  1. Thank the blogger who nominated you.
  2. Share 11 facts about yourself.
  3. Answer the 11 questions the blogger asked you.
  4. Nominate the 11 bloggers and make them happy..!
  5. Make up to 11 questions and ask them to your nominees.
  6. Notify your 11 nominees.


  1. I’m an honest person – even when I’m trying to be polite and not hurt anyone’s feelings, I always end up letting how I truly feel/think slip out by accident. I just can’t pretend something too much if it’s not how I honestly feel. Like, I can pretend something for a little bit, but eventually the truth will come out. And it’s usually sooner rather than later.
  2. I love games
  3. I love being goofy and silly
  4. I’m a fun-loving person (if you haven’t already guessed 😜)
  5. While I am 18, I still love to jump puddles…admit it, you do, too.
  6. While I love the beach, if I had to choose between the beach or the mountains, I would choose the mountains.
  7. I’m also extremely stubborn.
  8. I love romance (but not super cheesy romance, though the super cheesy stuff can be funny depending on the story and the characters and everything)
  9. While I’m not really into horror, I have found on the odd occasion that I can enjoy it (I have found it’s a fun genre to actually write) but overall I just can’t handle it. Weird, I know.
  10. I love the music group Skillet and really enjoy the singer Avi Kaplan’s music videos – he’s a really good singer!
  11. I’m on Pinterest!



Money and resources.


Yeah, when I was little, used to pick on and belittle one of my younger siblings for no reason. Don’t do that anymore, thankfully, but the fact that I did do it at one point horrifies me to no end.


Abortion, pedophilia, incest are a few examples.




IF I have to prioritize between them, it’d be family first.


Oh, yes, family issues and some personal shit I deal with *Shrugs*


My loud siblings, so I put on headphones and listen to music to focus on whatever it is that the siblings are/were distracting me from.


Nope, wouldn’t mind at all


A few problems my family’s currently going through just to start.


Cause it’s one of the few things I’m good at and cause it’s therapeutic and helps me express things that I struggle expressing otherwise.


To entertain but above all to help myself.

I can’t think of any new questions, so I’ll just pass along the ones I got.

You’re all nominated.

Have a great day/night!

Overturned Chapter 16

Recap of the ending of the previous chapter:

“And Virgil?”

That question made Charlie stop and look at her curiously to find her staring at him – without a scowl, surprisingly.

Instead she seemed to be studying him with a glowering intensity.

“What about him?” Charlie asked.

“Where is he? I haven’t seen any sign of him since we came here,” Lily remarked, eyes sticking to Charlie like glue.

“I don’t know. He disappeared soon after the ambulance came to get Mia,” he said, his voice cracking. It had been horrible – fire fighters had to be called to peel the wreckage off of Mia. The car and Mia had crashed into another car and both drivers were in the Intensive Care Unit.

Mia was very lucky to be alive.

He then realised that Lily was talking to him. “What do you mean he disappeared? Where did he go?”

“I don’t-”

He cut off as he saw a doctor come into the room and saw their names.

With a quick prayer, Charlie stopped and then went over to the doctor, but Lily had made it to the doctor first.

“Yes?” she asked.

Charlie mentally crossed his fingers.

Please still be alive, please…

Now we all know where we stand, let’s get on with Chapter 16:


The doctor cleared his throat and adjusted his glasses, looking at the two uncertainly.

“The good news is that Mia is alive. She’s currently in the ICU and looks to be staying there for a while.”

Oh, shit.

“Mia lost one of her legs,” the doctor continued.

Lily gasped and one of her hands shot to her mouth, tears starting to well up in her eyes. Charlie reached over to lay a comforting hand on her shoulder, but she pulled away at the last minute. Charlie sighed through his nose and turned back to the doctor.

“Did she just lose her leg?”

“Yes…physically. Can’t speak for what she’ll be like mentally and emotionally, though.”

“She’ll live, though, right?” Lily asked n a quiet and subdued voice.

“We hop-“

“How’s Mia?” a new voice said behind us. Charlie and Lily both turned around at the same time and saw none other than Virgil standing there, looking quite alarmed and frazzled.

He’s here?



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Reader Request August 31st and A Couple Awards

Hey everyone!

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A few days back I did a post announcing that I was doing a Reader Request. Well, today is the day that I answer the questions you all gave me.

How many siblings do you have??

Thirteen! 7 full siblings, 5 half-siblings and a friend whom is like a sister.

Which sibling are you in numbers??

I’m third out of my full siblings. If I count my full siblings, half-siblings and my friend, I am ninth.

Do you like ketchup or mayo????

Um…what’s mayo? And what’s ketchup? Is one of them the American equivalent of tomato sauce or something?

What is your future dream?

I’ve got some ideas.

Fav candy?

Since it’s candy and not chocolate, I’d have to say a lollipop or something?

What are you wearing right now?

I had gotten one of my brothers to take a couple photos of me in an outfit I was in earlier when I started typing up this post, but due to some stuff that came up, I wasn’t able to actually upload the photos until now and right now I’ve changed out of that outfit and into my pyjamas, so I can’t show the photos. As of right now, I am wearing a blue pyjama t-shirt with a picture of minnie mouse on it that says what’s not to love? and am wearing some brownish pyjama trousers that have some white intricate flowery patterns on them.

Are you extremely active?

I don’t know about extremely active, but I am an active person.

Is music a huge part of your life?


Monarchist or Republican?

Hmm, good question. There are pros and cons to each side. There are stuff about a Monarchy that appeal to me but there are stuff about a republic that appeal to me as well. But having grown up in a country that has a Monarchy, I’m somewhat more inclined to a Monarchy, particularly because while my country, which is a Monarchy, certainly has had it’s bits of instability with some stuff government wise, it’s ultimately more stable than say America’s politics, which is not a Monarchy.

So, basically, I think I’m more a Monarchist, but I am open to the idea of a Republic, though that depends on how it’s handled and stuff like that…if my answer makes any sense whatsoever.

Thank you Jasmine for nominating me for the Sunshine Blogger Award!!!!!


  1. Thank the person who nominated you and provide a link back to their blog so others can find them.
  2. Answer the 11 questions asked by the blogger who nominated you.
  3. Nominate 11 new bloggers and ask them 11 new questions.
  4. Notify the nominees by commenting on one of their blog posts.
  5. List the rules and display a sunshine blogger award logo on your post and/or your blog site.


What’s the best joke you’ve ever heard?

Not sure, I’ve heard a few really good ones recently and am not sure which one is the best.

What was your favourite age growing up?

Um, my teen years.

Was the last book you read?

My school books.

Camping or Glamping?

So, I had to look up what the hell “glamping” meant, lol!

And I prefer just camping.

Do you have any pet peeves?

Yes – the one that is safest to show on here is when a movie character doesn’t get his or hers so richly deserved butt kicking.

What’s one thing that can make your day instantly better?

There are a few things, but they don’t always make my day INSTANTLY better depending on how bad the day is, but they usually work, or at least help me start getting better.

Which meal is your favourite: breakfast, lunch, or dinner?

All three.


Cause all three meals involve FOOD!!!

Were you close with your family growing up?

Somewhat, yeah.

Do you ever wish you were raised differently?

Some aspects of how I was raised, yes, I damn well wish were different.

Who in your family would you describe as a “character”?

Edward, my three year old brother. A definite character.

So I saw this Liebster award that was left an open nomination and the questions were interesting (and some were outright hilarious for me), so I decided to do it!

Thank you pensitivity101!


*Thank the Blogger who nominated you and provide a link to their blog.
*Answer the 11 questions given to you.
*Name 11 fun facts about yourself.
*Nominate 11 other Bloggers.
*Ask your nominees 11 questions.


How old were you when you had your first flight?

I still haven’t had my first flight.

What is your favourite colour?

Red, green, black, grey, blue, etc.

Housework: do you prefer to hoover or dust?

I had to ask my brothers what hoover meant and apparently it means a type of vacuum cleaner ( why not just say do you prefer to vacuum or dust? lol just teasing, promise) so my answer is I prefer to vacuum. XD

Do you have a garden?


What is your favourite vegetable?

Ewww! Who has a favourite VEGETABLE?!??!

What is your taste in music?

Great question! Here is a post I did on my other blog where I give just a small snippet into my music life..and remember no matter how many songs you see on that post, it’s only a SMALL snippet of my music tastes!!!

Do you play an instrument?

No. Tried to learn, though.

Are you an only child?

HAHAHAHAHAH!!!! Far from it!!!!

Are you in touch with any of your school friends?

What school friends? I have friends, but am home schooled, so have no “school” friends.

How did you meet your partner?

Met my boyfriend through a writing roleplay group.

Do you celebrate anniversaries?



  1. My Mum says I have a weird sense of humour, along with some of my friends…whatever that’s meant to mean. What’s weird about me???? Ehhh?????????? *pulls silly face*
  2. I am extremely mature…I hope
  3. I have a vivid imagination
  4. I would like my books to be turned into movies!!
  5. I would like to travel around the world someday!!!!
  6. I’m not sure what to write now
  7. Why are we tormented with having to do this particular part of the award?!?
  8. I love the MCU and X-Men
  9. I also like the DCEU movies
  10. I don’t like anime very much
  11. I like The Witcher

MY NOMINEES (for either award that they choose to do):



Brother’s Campfire

Tales From The Mind Of Kristian

Reality Decoded


Mystery guy


Ryan Callaghan



Sammy Curry

So, yeah, my nominees pick either award that they want – the sunshine blogger award or the liebster award or both!!! – and you pick 11 questions from either (could be a mixture of some questions from one award and some questions from another award) just to try something different.



Time heals all things…

Or at least that’s what I’ve been told…

But I never get that time…

Too much to do, too much required…

Nobody will understand if I explain that I need to relax…chill…


So I tell myself I’m overreacting, I don’t need any time

Just suck it up, buttercup

But now I’m realizing my mistake…

Should I stand up and say

“Fuck off, I need time”

“I need to recuperate”?

But I’ll get too much shit thrown at me for it

Is it really worth it?

Or is time to yourself just ….overrated?


So…yeah, don’t have much to say about this one…hope you all enjoyed!


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The Change – part 1

Landscape, Fantasy, Night, Sky, Star, Lake, Reflection

Lucy looked up from her laptop screen as she heard a knock on her bedroom door. “Come in,” she said. The door then opened and her mother poked her head in.

“G’night, Luce,” her mother said with a smile, causing Lucy to smile back. “How’s your studies going? Nearly ready for that exam on Monday?”

“Yeah, I think I’m ready,” Lucy responded. Her phone than briefly beeped as a text message came in. She reached across to her nightstand by her bed to grab her phone and check the text message when she suddenly winced and her hand clutched her stomach as she suddenly felt nauseous.

What did I eat at supper?

“…make sure you know it?”

Lucy blinked and looked over at her mother, to find her inside her room, looking over some of the framed photographs Lucy had hanging on the wall. “Huh? Sorry, what did you say Mum?” she asked, wincing again as her toes curled up as a sharp pain began stabbing her stomach and she clutched her stomach a little tighter.

“I was wondering if you wanted me to do a little impromptu test with you,” Lucy’s mother asked, still not having turned around. “You know, to make sure you know the material and to help you better prepare for the exam.”

“Uh, yeah, sounds great, Mum,” Lucy said through gritted teeth before she let out an anguished cry as white spots flooded her vision. Squeezing her eyes shut, tears leaked out due to the pain before the white spots retreated and Lucy slowly unwound from the fetal position she had curled into as she opened her eyes and gasped for breath. “What the fuck did I eat?” she muttered to herself as she reached up with one of her hands to wipe her forehead…before letting out a scream as she looked at her hand…or what used to be her hand.

Her hand was now covered in bluish-green scales and there was some strange squishy material between her fingers, making it look almost like a frog’s foot.

“It happens to all of us, my dear,” her mother said.

“Wha…?” Lucy gasped as her eyes darted over to her mother to find her mother now looking at her coolly, without any emotion, hands clasped behind her back, simply observing the process. “What do you-argh!” Lucy doubled over on the bed again, both “hands” (as both were now turned into some ugly, hideous frog foot thing) clutching her stomach as tears started streaming down her face due to the pain.

Through the tears, she saw scales starting to pop up along her legs and her feet start to change to what looked like…a fish’s tail?!?

Her head started to throb as the white spots filled her vision again. She tried to gasp for air, but no air came. The room suddenly felt hot and heavy and no matter how much she gasped for air, there as no air there for her to breathe.

“You need to be in the water to breathe, as all creatures of the ocean do.”

“M…make it s-sto…..Mum, please…” Lucy choked out.

“It’s all part of the process, love. You’ll be fine,” her mother said as she knelt down in front of her. She reached out and briefly touched Lucy’s forehead in what seemed almost like an affectionate gesture.

Her mum then reached up with the other hand and snapped her fingers and wave after wave of pain rippled through Lucy, causing her to scream.

She thought she heard her mother say, “It happens to all of us. Just relax…”

And then everything faded away.


So yeah, I’m not sure how that picture inspired this, but that’s what happened, so I just went with it and I must say I’m pretty damn proud of it. Hope you all enjoyed and yes, this is just meant to remain a mysterious one-shot, hehe. Though, if you all want a continuation, I might do one 😉

Also I’m doing a Reader Request, which you can check out by clicking here so if you wanna ask me any questions about anything at all, click on that link and post your questions in the comment section and I’ll answer them in an post in 6 days time!

Have a great day/night!

The Sunshine Blogger Award

G’day y’all!!!!

Welcome to all my new followers!!!!

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Anyways, I’ve been nominated for the Sunshine Blogger Award by the unique and awesome blogger Shaheshal!!!!

Thank you Shaheshal!!!!!

Go check her out and give her a follow – she’s a FANTASTIC blogger and will really brighten up your day!!!!!


  1. Thank the person who nominated you and provide a link back to their blog so others can find them.
  2. Answer the 11 questions asked by the blogger who nominated you.
  3. Nominate 11 new bloggers and ask them 11 new questions.
  4. Notify the nominees by commenting on one of their blog posts.
  5. List the rules and display a sunshine blogger award logo on your post and/or your blog site.


Which disney movie did you like when you were young???

Ha! I still am young and still love Disney!!! I love all the Disney movies I’ve seen so far!!!

Did you sometimes wish you would grow young again???

Sometimes, yes, I wish I could be a child again, so I like to sometimes let my inner child out – which is why I love this Youth Group thing that I go to once a week where I interact and play with other teens and kids. It gives me a chance to still be a kid and be silly and goofy and not worry about others telling me off for having so much fun…which I don’t worry about, anyway, lol!

Since how many years have you been blogging now???

Two and a third years now.

How many siblings do you have???

Thirteen – 7 full siblings, 5 half-siblings and a friend that I’ve taken on as my big sister!

Blueberries or raspberries???

Leaning more towards raspberries here.

Chocolate cake or vanilla????

Chocolate cake!!! Unless vanilla means ‘vanilla ice-cream’, which in that case I’d say both.

What would be the theme song of your life?

Hmm…don’t know the answer to that one. I know of songs that I strongly relate to, but don’t think they would count for the theme song of my life.

What has been your favorite memory this year?

🙂 🙂 🙂 🙂 🙂 🙂

What is the craziest/most daring thing you’ve ever done?

I think so far it’s been trying to put tomato sauce on my cereal years ago.

What talents do you possess that not a lot of people know?

Wouldn’t you like to know?

Did you approve my questions? It’s a yes or no question!





Yes 😄


J-M’s History Corner





Aaaannnnndddd……….I can’t think of anymore, so whoever else wants to do it can do it.


What outdoor activity do you enjoy the most? (unless you’re an indoors type, then what indoor activity do you enjoy the most?)

What’s your favourite Disney song?

What, in your personal opinion, counts as racism?

If you were to suddenly have the authority to permanently change one thing – and once you changed it there, would be no turning back – what would it be?

What is the best experience that you had as a child?

What is something that you have never tried before that you want to try before you die?

And that’s all the questions I can think of…congrats to all my nominees and hope everyone reading this and who will read it has a great day/night!!!!

Oh, and btw, I have done a Reader Request. You can check out the post and ask me any questions you want by clicking here.